I’m planning on going to Six Flags in St. Louis tomorrow and hopefully everything will go alright. If you look, there was no entry yesterday. The reason things might not work out for me going to Six Flags and the reason there was no entry happens to be the same.Read More

It’s friday night and I’m sitting in my dorm room doing nothing. That’s really pathetic as some of you may know from going to college. Today has been eventful enough for me, though. I have a really sore throat, I’ve been sneezing, and I think I just need to slowRead More

I’m quite sad right now..without a reason really. I’m quite lonely and I have this yearning inside of me that just wishes I had someone here to curl up with and watch a movie or to sit and talk with while we listen to music. The feeling is indescribable toRead More

Ever have a day so wonderful you didn’t and couldn’t let go of it? Ever wish you could live it again and again? Prom was always one of those days for me..or the weekend of homecoming. The energy is so positive all around you, you get to dress up, andRead More

I saw a beautiful and rare sight today as I went to class at 8 AM. On my way towards the stairs I heard that it was raining outside so I grabbed a jacket out of my darkened dorm and made my way to the lobby of the Griesedeck Complex.Read More

A stoned out, paranoid Russell Hammond preaches to writer William Miller from the top of a house… “And you can tell Rolling Stone magazine that my last words were… I’m on drugs!!!!” The party crowd at said house roars in wild response. William says, “Russell! I think we should workRead More

Spent the morning / early afternoon at the hospital with Pre-op stuff. It’s funny how easy it is to choke on something when you don’t chew it — or how painful it can be when you have difficulty continuing to swallow what you are choking on… I also have somethingRead More

T minus a day and a matter of hours. I ranted to a few people today about how I am right now and I really came to the clear realization I don’t like focusing on myself. I mean, I’ve been called selfish when I’m being a pain in the assRead More

You’re conceived. When you’re born, you come to be, as it’s known. You come into the world. You come into your family and your journey through life begins. That’s the start of the comings of life. You come into a lot of things and as you progress in life, mature,Read More

C7 / T1 is not the tumor that is causing my legs to be weak, it’s not the tumor causing my sensation loss among other things. It is, however, the tumor Dr. Smith wants to operate on, which would likely put me in dire straights afterwords because I wouldn’t beRead More

This song is so appropriate right now (ok, the title more than the verse)… Cure me… or Kill me By Gilby Clare When the last car hit the wall Was the guilt still in or head? In your magic crystal ball Is the power that made you mad You can’tRead More

Is James Clayton in The Recruit NOC or is he a wash out that got used by a dirty CIA agent? I watched it late last night and I know this question isn’t supposed to hang with you but it is hanging with me… Don’t know why for sure… IRead More

Well, 365 Days ago I had two very big events in my life… And honestly I don’t know what to tell you in text. A year removed from my neck operation and I am sort of missing — not the operation but the contentment I found in mutual feelings forRead More

Well, today’s moving day for thousands — if not millions — of teens and young adults as they go out to college and start their higher education career and a new life in general. Tonight for some (such as a few friends of mine — Terrable, Sarah) are sleeping inRead More

I am SO disturbed… corrupt thy children! Worth 1000 He he he he… I don’t know what’s more disturbing – me laughing my ass off at these pictures or me forcing them on other people? . So things aren’t much better for me as it stands right now – andRead More

So what have I done the past four days in my house? Just about everything…. Alone at that. In fact I went and put on a pot of coffee for my parents about the time their flight got in. You know, Mr. Nice Guy and stuff like that. I wouldRead More

I’ll try to be back later to provide something of substance (like THAT happens?) as an entry later on but I want to ask if anyone is interested in guest blogging starting August 27th…. I’ll be indisposed for an unknown amount of time after that. I was hoping Miguelito wouldRead More

All Apologies: What else should I be? All apologies What else should I say? Everyone is gay What else could I write? I don’t have the right What else should I be? All Apologies In the sun In the sun I feel as one In the sun In the sunRead More

OK, I am not an accomplished writer — officially yet… that’s not what this entry is about. I’m not an accomplished Smart ass… Well, wait a minute.. Um, strike that… No on no, I meant to say that the day was full of accomplishments that I didn’t even set outRead More

Well, day one of being home alone goes by without incident. Well, sorta. New York and the Northeast, as many of you already know, has gone into the dark. Of course it’s brighter in NYC than it is in Tampa Florida as it stands at this moment as I ganderRead More

For an audience of one: How was the show Wednesday night? Certain friends told me about it a few weeks ago….

Once again, I struggle to sleep. 2 AM comes around and I find I can go on till 3 just fine and dandy. Before 3 hits, I am off to my bed where I hope gentle slumbers will take me for a pleasant trip to Dreamland… Yet sleep doesn’t come.Read More

I just wrote a piece about something that happened to me over at KilltheWeb.com. Either click on the link provided or read the extended entry.

And now my site has changed in oh-so-many ways The “Home” extension seemed to vanished in the haze Damnit, i kept trying to finish that verse/parody from Help! and it just didn’t quite happen. The site’s URL is now www.stonegauge.com — sans the home. I’m still working on making sureRead More

My great aunt Cassie died yesterday and my mom is very broken up about it. Her and my father are planning on leaving for Massachusetts for four days to attend the funeral 00 that’s if they don’t drive up there – and either that leaves me home (mostly) alone orRead More

Insomnia unlimited take 3. I was at Andy’s place with Andy and Mike tonight and we were all hanging out and putting together ideas what he could do to the place to improve it. I really couldn’t believe we were hanging out together at my brothers own house… It justRead More

I’m looking for a positive today – some positive that effects me directly instead of all these negatives hanging over me or swirling around me. Where’s the surprise? Where’s teh unexpected? Where’s the change-up? Something’s got to jar it’s head into my life to get me back on track becauseRead More

Surgery was put off till the 27th And I don’t feel good about having an extra week.

The title of this entry says it all. five days of rain once again…. Nothing much else to it all… Legs are failing, people are failing – I’m failing them as well.

Insomnia sucks… I mean it really sucks. Sure, it’s 2:30 when I write this — in the afternoon. This was after I was up till close to 5 AM just tossing and turning and trying to find something to help me drift off into golden slumbers. My mind was runningRead More

Andy has his house now… He closed on it (despite some setbacks – including his mortgage company being destroyed in Memphis, Tennessee storms) today…. He’s also back with Adriane which surprised the hell out of both me and my mom.

Jason Biggs described himself in Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back perfectly while he was being arrested… “I’m the Pie Fucker! I’m the Pie Fucker!” Unfortunately that’s the only role Jason gets questioned about — or when he’s being asked about other things… Pie Fucking ends up one of thoseRead More

I started realizing a dilemma that I’m going to be facing if I am in the writing realm… It’s actually something I noticed a long long time ago but didn’t think it would have any effect on me because I didn’t know where I was going with things with myRead More

So anyway…. I’ve been finishing going over assignment 4 and I actually killed off the happy-ending for the sake of the plot twist. Not so much a plot twist but a more realistic ending. If I had 2500 words or more, I probably would have further gone into things butRead More

I’m testing out a new feature that I enabled for one reason or another.This will give you the chance to read something I wrote over at Kill The Web As one who is on the progressive side of the fence with my political views, I feel like one of thoseRead More

So as I stated in a previous entry that I got assignment 3 back on Saturday. After pinning Sunday and writing my entry for Monday on and off during the day before publishing it Monday morning… Well, I got back in the saddle with writing. Not writing, per se butRead More

It was a year ago today that J.P. Fontana got some press today And though he is pretty much out of style, he tries his best to raise a smile I got up this morning and was reading the paper – Sunday edition of the St. Petersburg Times — likeRead More

One moment you can have your ego coddled by the powers that be, the next minute you can have it torn down by a barb. One minute you can feel really good about yoruself and the next minute someone can fuck it up for you in one way or another.Read More

A Questioned Chance Thumbed nose At the bright red rose And vile thoughts At the offered olive branch A questioned chance Beliefs are worth their weight in gold Giving heart back to you ten-fold And stolen heart is what she holds I must let go I must let go SeekingRead More

A technical knockout or a TKO is when a fighter is knocked down three times during a fight (or some other specified number). Three times. Three times. Down and out three times. I’ve talked briefly in past entries about my balance being bad – partly thrown off because of myRead More

Saving a post from KillTheweb.com’s blog because we may be getting rid of it. Want to save this before it goes the way of the dodo I think by now all of you Kobe Bryant case. Maybe you’re thinking his accuser is just a gold digger, maybe you’re thinking KobeRead More

I can’t believe how my day has gone. My highlights are falling down earlier, getting my head hit by the door when Mike entered the room, watching some of Fellowship of the Ring, trying to figure out how many hours +/- General Mean Time I need to set Tampa BayRead More

A whole lot of blah being served up on patrami, hold the pickle. I’m talking to Miguel about guest-blogging in here for me while I am out of it. i might offer that option to a few others. It’s not so much so he can report about me as heRead More

DejÃ-Vu. Very, very dejÃ-vu… See, about a year ago I had some things happening to me that made life a big worry… A worry much bigger than your day to day but not so incomprehensible that you would think I’m an alien or something like that (though the Men InRead More

What the heck happened with my Netflix Profile??? Oh, it’s not like something wrong or bad happened to it. Quite the opposite really. Netflix, it seems, made two of my movie reviews spotlighted (that or there is a glitch in the system) and I am very much surprised to findRead More

So it’s late night Saturday (early Sunday, bloody, Sunday morning) and I’m losing myself in my writing again as I have at times of the past few months. Ahh, the comfort in text – now if it was only worth reading… and if there was only proof people read thisRead More

Sometimes, sosmething or someone pains me. All my close friends know that I’m sensitive about shit and what not… They also know I tend to dwell and that bothers them. That bothers me in some ways looking at it long and hard. Some of the poetry on this very siteRead More

Well, the good news is I am not dead yet. … No, no… it’s not that bad, I’m just tired right now and not thinking straight for the most part. I got to Bartels office at 11, waited till about 1 to see him, you can imagine how much funRead More

Seeing how it’s almost 10 AM I thought I would start the day off with a journal entry. I’m seeing Dr. Bartels inside 2 hours and I’m going to be talking turkey with medical stuff. Ah, and to clarify something I said yesterday: I’ve been dealing with a story thatRead More

Was writing today for the most part — as I was yesterday as well. Don’t feel quite up to a full entry, want to get away from the computer again… “Trust in things…” Trust in things beyond my doing Faith in things I can’t believe Wanting things That leave meRead More