Bad shape day
Today I got to know how bad I am right now. I got to see my body operating on it’s own without many things to save me.
I’ve fallen, tripped, drugged myself too much, or too little – take yoru pick. I’ve let my sorrows get me to nit-pick issues I shouldn’t and torture myself because of doing so… I’ve been with a therapist, I’ve been with a nurse… I’ve been no where and everywhere in the house all at one time.
I’ve seen the TV and seen I don’t want to watch anything on there. I’ve looked online and seen there’s only one person right now that I need and if circumstances were different – it wouldn’t be online need – it be a tangible need.
There are so many things I need to get to doing but right now I really should just take it easy and fart around – I am allowed. There so many things I want to do and can’t… so many things that I can do but won’t bring myself to do…
You’re allowed, John, to take a few days off. Or at least you might be…
John take a break. Relax and clear your head. Read a good book or something. I would say take a nice long bubble bath, but I don’t think it’s your style. lol. So do anything you can to relax and enjoy so time to yourself for a change. But if you need to talk, just shoot me a message. Laterz.
Thanks Mel. I’d take a bath if my legs weren’t so weak and my back / neck in rough shape becasue of surgery.